Overwhelmed

His kisses are so soft,  like spun sugar
His touch is so gentle yet commanding
The way he moves about my body,
like a skilled craftsman modeling his muse
This isn't sex,
nor is it any where near fucking
Its a possession
A possession of my body,  my mind,  my soul
And it just keeps getting better
Each time different from the last
A level deeper
A firmer embrace on my conscienceness
In my mind,  he dances through my days
And at night he is the warm breeze
That fans the flames of my heady desire
He is my morning rising
What began so simply in July
Has picked up speed,  gained momentum
Gave itself a purpose
And haunts my sex

"It only gets better".....
The words that taunt me
So true
Promising more,  even when I believe
there couldn't possibly be more
The surprise
The delivery
The awe

He's overwhelming me
And god I can't help myself



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It takes a lot to get me to cry,

Yet here I am.

I pride myself on being a strong woman,   I've endured a lot in my lifetime and have always managed to get through.  

Circumstances as of late though have been just a bit more than I am willing to tolerate.  More than I'm willing to try to handle.

The person im supposed to help fights me on way too many things.   I don't have the strength anylonger.  I don't have the WANT to help any longer.

My time is being wasted.
My kindness taken for weakness.
My forgiveness taken for granted.
My friendship, underrated.

It's enough to make a good person go bad.  I refuse to allow that to happen,  but I will be removing people from my life.   People I have no use for.

I'm fresh out of "give a damn" and full of fuck yous.
I just can't take it anymore.

New Year,  time for a new me.

Hello old friend, I'm back once again

I've always prided myself on being the type of person who doesn't give up on people.  I don't view people as disposable and believe that people are put in your life for a reason.   I think I've learned a new lesson.

My lesson is that some people are put in your life to help you to learn how to better love and respect yourself.

No one deserves to be ignored.
No one deserves to be disrespected.
No one deserves to be made to feel as though they don't matter.
No one deserves to be made to feel they are unimportant.
No one deserves to give of their heart freely with nothing in return.

The list goes on.  

I allowed myself, just for a brief moment to feel like I've given up on someone,  when the whole time the person I gave up on was me.  I completely forgot my own worth.

While the death of any relationship is always hard,  I will be focusing on all the positives I brought to the table and remember that it's not a "me" issue.

My only sadness is that this person is lost and continues to lose things that were placed in their life to help them heal.  I truly, with all my heart,  wish them well.

And now that I'm free,  now that the weight is lifted from carrying their pains,  now that I've rediscovered that I really LIKE the person I am......

Anything is possible again

and today

You consistently speak of your requirement for communication,  yet can't handle it when you receive it.